Frustrated and Confused

 Well, it's been more than five months I'm a programmer and I think that's enough. In the end of September 2013, I'll resign. Why I choose to resign?

Hm...
The place is good...
The coworker is nice...
The project is so many...

The trouble is in me, even though I think I'm good enough to be a programmer, I'm not really into it. Like today, I get stuck in code and I have no idea what I should do. When I do my job as a programmer and do coding, I'll just face my laptop and code. I will have no contact at other because I'm into my "code". I don't really wanna be an autism.

What I wanna do?
Well, I want to do something or anything that I'm interested in. For example I'm interested in child development and language. I want to do any job that have something to do with children development even if it's research. I want to do any job that use my skill in language as in English language for example translator.

Thinking further education?
Well, I was graduate from Informatics Engineer Bachelor Degree, and I really have no passion on getting post graduate major in line with informatics. I know I'll can keep up with the "logic" as in "algorithm" only, if I take the same major, that won't do.

I'm frustrated on my own.
Is there anyone have an idea what should I do?

My Blessing...

Like everybody else, I take for granted the life that I live, the love that I get, the patient that I receive, the support that never stop.

I know, I shouldn't.

You know way?
Because even just a fraction of second, everything can change.

All those things are blessing...
From my GOD, through my beloved parent...

Up till now, I realize that I give little to them but take so much from them.

The Life I live, they made it.
So much more from them, I take for granted.

I know they love me, they show it in every way sometimes blindside me into selfishness.
They really being patient to me, even I do something so stupid over and over again...

I'm so ashamed...

When I broke down, they cheer me up.
When I need a push, they give me their support.

There is nothing I can say more about My Blessing...

IT'S JUST SO MUCH...

and

IT NEVER ENOUGH TO SAY THANK GOD, FOR THEM.

I wanna make my step, even just a little step to make them proud of me...

I wanna see their wonderful smile, when they see me...

I don't know how long time we still have together, 

I don't want spent the rest of my life regretting for never give something to them, even just a little happiness...

I love them to pieces. 

I DO.

Never really into affection to display in daily life, but I can write it down I guess...
Mom, I love you...
Dad, I love you too...
I love you both, thank you for everything...  

I love you...